I've been saving these logo's for a good while now. I have thought about this study, I have thought about what it is to search for comfort... Well, this study is going to prayerfully answer questions that have been jumbling around in my heart for some time.It seems like such an easy question to answer, "What are you searching for?" But it really questions my motives, actions, and thoughts.
What are you searching for?
Sometimes I have to be honest with myself and say that I do not know... but then there are other times I answer "pleasure". And still other times I answer love, the spotlight, peace, release of frustration, or God. Unfortunately, God isn't as high on the list as he should be. He should be #1... but generally speaking, he is almost always toward the bottom of my list as for who or what I am searching for...
Truth be known, I can be a very selfish person, thinking about my wants and desires before everyone elses needs. That's why I truly believe that I am one of the worst sinners out there. This post could come back to haunt me, and rightfully so, I would have to say, but I believe (and probably almost always have) that it is good to see where it is that I am before I can make the changes in my character to move forward.
I would have to say that my spiritual walk is like a stumbling and staggering walk falling all over myself and generally away from my God. I really and truly do not want it to be like that. I haven't posted or even had a quiet time in a good while. It's upsetting to think about, really, at how I have turned my back on God in a certain way that has shut me off from communication from him. This shouldn't be so. But it is.
The good thing is that I can repent, which is what I am doing. I don't know if I will return to a consistent everyday approach online, but that is what my goal is right now.
Psalm 4:1-8
Answer me when I call to you, O my righteous God. Give me relief from my distress; be merciful to me and hear my prayer. How long, O men, will you turn my glory into shame? How long will you love delusions and seek false gods? Know that the LORD has set apart the godly for himself; the LORD will hear when I call to him. In your anger do not sin; when you are on your beds, search your hearts and be silent. Offer right sacrifices and trust in the LORD. Many are asking, "Who can show us any good?" Let the light of your face shine upon us, O LORD. You have filled my heart with greater joy than when their grain and new wine abound. I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety.
I have to search my heart. I have to see what it is that is keeping me distant. It isn't an easy task, and even worse, I will find things that I will not want to see... but then I can begin the healing process and that will truly please my God. Johnny Out.
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