Vomit Study: Lesson 2

Leviticus 18:24-28

"‘Do not defile yourselves in any of these ways, because this is how the nations that I am going to drive out before you became defiled. Even the land was defiled; so I punished it for its sin, and the land vomited out its inhabitants. But you must keep my decrees and my laws. The native-born and the foreigners residing among you must not do any of these detestable things, for all these things were done by the people who lived in the land before you, and the land became defiled. And if you defile the land, it will vomit you out as it vomited out the nations that were before you.

This is a promise. If you defile the people around you, you will be pushed away, pushed out from the things that you love. No sin goes unpunished. Boy can I attest to that. Here I am living away from my family, I got served divorce papers today and simply couldn't focus on work, so I was sent home early. I have done detestable things, unspeakable things, that have hurt my marriage and the marriage vomited me out.

Deuteromony 30:1-3
When all these blessings and curses I have set before you come on you and you take them to heart wherever the Lord your God disperses you among the nations, and when you and your children return to the Lord your God and obey him with all your heart and with all your soul according to everything I command you today, then the Lord your God will restore your fortunes and have compassion on you and gather you again from all the nations where he scattered you.

Here is my hope, that God has compassion and restores my fortunes from which I was scattered. The promise is that I take these things to heart and obey the Lord. God loves obedience. And that is all I can offer him.

Vomit Study

Proverbs 23:6-8
Do not eat the food of a begrudging host, do not crave his delicacies; for he is the kind of person who is always thinking about the cost. “Eat and drink,” he says to you, but his heart is not with you. You will vomit up the little you have eaten and will have wasted your compliments.

I haven't posted in a while, due to me being lazy and hard hearted. I think I am getting better now. I believe my heart needs to be where it is at for me to recover from my addictions. I have quit the things I need to quit now it is time to do the good things that I need to do. I have been getting a lot of advice for the past few days, my wife has filed for divorce, and I can't blame her. I have been a jerk and a glutton for a long time. It served as a wake up call for me to get busy on my recovery. I miss them. I miss my family a whole lot. I am so sorry for the things I have done and wish only to restore my relationship with them. Only God can do that now. It is out of my hands, really at this point.

Begrudge (verb):

• to envy or resent the pleasure or good fortune of (someone)
• to be reluctant to give or allow

Ever eaten with someone who seemed reluctant to serve? They seem nervous or anxious when you are over. I find it irritating to be around people like that. I am sure I have been guilty of it once or twice, only due to being new to the whole treating people when they come over. I am sure I will be guilty of it again, as it has been a long time since I have had friends over... all I ask is that you don't vomit your food up and allow some grace to play a part in my serving you.

Micah 6

Listen to what the Lord says:

“Stand up, plead my case before the mountains; let the hills hear what you have to say. “Hear, you mountains, the Lord’s accusation; listen, you everlasting foundations of the earth. For the Lord has a case against his people; he is lodging a charge against Israel.

“My people, what have I done to you? How have I burdened you? Answer me. I brought you up out of Egypt and redeemed you from the land of slavery. I sent Moses to lead you, also Aaron and Miriam. My people, remember what Balak king of Moab plotted and what Balaam son of Beor answered. Remember your journey from Shittim to Gilgal, that you may know the righteous acts of the Lord.”

With what shall I come before the Lord and bow down before the exalted God? Shall I come before him with burnt offerings, with calves a year old? Will the Lord be pleased with thousands of rams, with ten thousand rivers of olive oil? Shall I offer my firstborn for my transgression, the fruit of my body for the sin of my soul? He has shown you, O mortal, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God. 

Listen! The Lord is calling to the city —and to fear your name is wisdom— “Heed the rod and the One who appointed it. Am I still to forget your ill-gotten treasures, you wicked house, and the short ephah, which is accursed? Shall I acquit someone with dishonest scales, with a bag of false weights? Your rich people are violent; your inhabitants are liars and their tongues speak deceitfully. Therefore, I have begun to destroy you, to ruin you because of your sins. You will eat but not be satisfied; your stomach will still be empty. You will store up but save nothing, because what you save I will give to the sword. You will plant but not harvest; you will press olives but not use the oil, you will crush grapes but not drink the wine. You have observed the statutes of Omri and all the practices of Ahab’s house; you have followed their traditions. Therefore I will give you over to ruin and your people to derision; you will bear the scorn of the nations.”

Max Lucado

I had the pleasure of sitting in on a simulcast of Max Lucado speaking on the subject of Grace, which happens to be the title of his new book coming out. Here are some notes on the lesson.

John 8:2-11 some interesting points on this passage was that the woman was caught in adultery. That really hit home for me, as I have been caught in my sin a number of times. How does Jesus handle this? He stoops down and starts writing in the dust (or dirt), taking a lower position that the woman. When the people being to verbally push Jesus, he stands up and defends her. Isn't that interesting? Jesus defends me just as much, if not more so than that of that woman.

There was also a passage in Hebrews 7, although I am uncertain of the verse.

Romans 8:34 Jesus doesn't condemn. If I am to be like Jesus, then I shouldn't either.

Ezekiel 35:25-26 When I give Jesus my heart, he returns the favor. Jesus needs to dwell within me. When god hears my heartbeat, whose heart does he hear? My heart or the heart of Jesus?

Grace is what is done by Jesus IN me. Heaven into me. So why do I still behave bad? Transplants take time, it is a gradual process. Be strong in the grace. Grow in the grace. Have the heart of a sponge and not of a rock. Stand in the grace of God. Become a grace shaped person!

1st Corinthians 9

1st Corinthians 9: I am reading both books of Corinthians right now by the request of my wife. So far, it has been good reading. In this chapter, I see that I have to become all things to all people in order to save some. The race is marked out for me. I have to work for my recovery. I have to become something more than I already am so that I might save myself.

You see, I have become the homeless. I have become the jobless. I have become really good at being an addict. And now it is time to become something better. Now it is time to become someone recovered. As I type this at rehab, I reflect on that I have nearly 50 days pure and sober. I've lost my wife and kids, but there is hope that someday I will get them back, although to me it looks bleak. My friends have more hope about it than I do.

Anyway, it is nearing time to have to walk away from the computer, so I will close out there.