May 6th, 2006
When I was a child, I idolized Superman. He was, in a sense, my hero. I really thought he was cool. He could do everything and he thought of others before himself. I thought he was a good role model. I wanted to be like him. I can now see me mortality. The nurse was wrong. She made a mistake, as mistakes happen, and that’s OK. My vertebrae, for the most part, are fine. I do have a slightly bulging disk, but it wouldn’t be causing the problems that I am having. The main concern that the doctor is looking into is in fact MS, or multiple sclerosis. I was in pretty much denial for most of yesterday, but now is it really setting in on how it doesn’t have a cure. The tests this doctor has put me through that I have failed puzzle me, such as squeezing his fingers and not being able to. I thought I was doing a good job and he kept saying to squeeze them… and I was squeezing them. Hey, my muscles were giving it all they got! God has truly humbled me.
The Tongue – Edition #27: Shriek of Anguish
Exodus 22:22-24
“Do not take advantage of a widow or an orphan. If you do and they cry out to me, I will certainly hear their cry. My anger will be aroused, and I will kill you with the sword; your wives will become widows and your children fatherless.”
Exodus 22:23 cry out:
tsâ‛aq
tsaw-ak'
A primitive root; to shriek; (by implication) to proclaim (an assembly): - X at all, call together, cry (out), gather (selves) (together).
Habakkuk 1:2-4
How long, O LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen? Or cry out to you, “Violence!” but you do not save? Why do you make me look at injustice? Why do you tolerate wrong? Destruction and violence are before me; there is strife, and conflict abounds. Therefore the law is paralyzed, and justice never prevails. The wicked hem in the righteous, so that justice is perverted.
Habakkuk 1:2 cry out:
zâ‛aq
zaw-ak'
A primitive root; to shriek (from anguish or danger); by analogy (as a herald) to announce or convene publicly: - assemble, call (together), (make a) cry (out), come with such a company, gather (together), cause to be proclaimed.
Habakkuk 1:2 save:
yâsha‛
yaw-shah'
A primitive root; properly to be open, wide or free, that is, (by implication) to be safe; causatively to free or succor: - X at all, avenging, defend, deliver (-er), help, preserve, rescue, be safe, bring (having) salvation, save (-iour), get victory.
Jenny is in despair because MS doesn’t have a cure. I was, like I said, pretty much in denial about it most of yesterday. And why not, I am now on three different pain medications (and yet I still hurt). We celebrated my son’s birthday today… it was enjoyable, but I ended up getting a lot of attention from family that I really didn’t want. I guess that is OK. I really wanted the focus to be on my son and not the spotlight to be on me, but again, I am pretty doped up right now. And so, here’s this situation. I’m in this pain. The doctor knows I am in pain. God knows I am in pain. I know I am in pain. How long, O LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen? Or cry out to you, “I’m in pain!” but you do not help? Now, the changes are truly mine… but, I this is how I feel sometimes. And it is OK to be frustrated with God. It is how we deal with that frustration that develops character. It’s any challenging situation, really, that develops character. So, what do I do?
Hebrews 5:7-10
During the days of Jesus' life on earth, he offered up prayers and petitions with loud cries and tears to the one who could save him from death, and he was heard because of his reverent submission. Although he was a son, he learned obedience from what he suffered and, once made perfect, he became the source of eternal salvation for all who obey him and was designated by God to be high priest in the order of Melchizedek.
Christ learned obedience. That is a shocking thing to a lot of people. It doesn’t say that Christ sinned and that is not what I am saying, but it says that Christ learned to be obedient. I think this has to do with him being twelve
Hebrews 5:8 learn:
manthanō
man-than'-o
Prolonged from a primary verb, another form of which, matheō, is used as an alternate in certain tenses; to learn (in any way): - learn, understand.
Hebrews 5:8 obedience:
hupakoē
hoop-ak-o-ay'
Attentive hearkening, that is, (by implication) compliance or submission: - obedience, (make) obedient, obey (-ing).
Luke 2:41-52
Every year his parents went to Jerusalem for the Feast of the Passover. When he was twelve years old, they went up to the Feast, according to the custom. After the Feast was over, while his parents were returning home, the boy Jesus stayed behind in Jerusalem, but they were unaware of it. Thinking he was in their company, they traveled on for a day. Then they began looking for him among their relatives and friends. When they did not find him, they went back to Jerusalem to look for him. After three days they found him in the temple courts, sitting among the teachers, listening to them and asking them questions. Everyone who heard him was amazed at his understanding and his answers. When his parents saw him, they were astonished. His mother said to him, “Son, why have you treated us like this? Your father and I have been anxiously searching for you.”
“Why were you searching for me?” he asked. “Didn’t you know I had to be in my Father's house?” But they did not understand what he was saying to them.
Then he went down to Nazareth with them and was obedient to them. But his mother treasured all these things in her heart. And Jesus grew in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and men.
Luke 2:51 obedient:
hupotassō
hoop-ot-as'-so
To subordinate; reflexively to obey: - be under obedience (obedient), put under, subdue unto, (be, make) subject (to, unto), be (put) in subjection (to, under), submit self unto.
And this is really the obedience that I need to have. When it all comes down, it is OK to cry out and it is good to put my petitions before God, but I still have to remain obedient to him. Christ became obedient to his parents, at least it says here at the age of twelve. I know it can at a later age for me, for God and my parents, but at least it came. And doubts come and go, we cry out, but that doesn’t mean we stop being obedient. I am tired. My son has had three birthday parties today… my body hurts… and I am groggy. I appreciate your prayers and kind words. I love you all. Johnny Out.
“Kind words can be short and easy to speak but their echoes are truly endless.”
Mother Teresa
When I was a child, I idolized Superman. He was, in a sense, my hero. I really thought he was cool. He could do everything and he thought of others before himself. I thought he was a good role model. I wanted to be like him. I can now see me mortality. The nurse was wrong. She made a mistake, as mistakes happen, and that’s OK. My vertebrae, for the most part, are fine. I do have a slightly bulging disk, but it wouldn’t be causing the problems that I am having. The main concern that the doctor is looking into is in fact MS, or multiple sclerosis. I was in pretty much denial for most of yesterday, but now is it really setting in on how it doesn’t have a cure. The tests this doctor has put me through that I have failed puzzle me, such as squeezing his fingers and not being able to. I thought I was doing a good job and he kept saying to squeeze them… and I was squeezing them. Hey, my muscles were giving it all they got! God has truly humbled me.
The Tongue – Edition #27: Shriek of Anguish
Exodus 22:22-24
“Do not take advantage of a widow or an orphan. If you do and they cry out to me, I will certainly hear their cry. My anger will be aroused, and I will kill you with the sword; your wives will become widows and your children fatherless.”
Exodus 22:23 cry out:
tsâ‛aq
tsaw-ak'
A primitive root; to shriek; (by implication) to proclaim (an assembly): - X at all, call together, cry (out), gather (selves) (together).
Habakkuk 1:2-4
How long, O LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen? Or cry out to you, “Violence!” but you do not save? Why do you make me look at injustice? Why do you tolerate wrong? Destruction and violence are before me; there is strife, and conflict abounds. Therefore the law is paralyzed, and justice never prevails. The wicked hem in the righteous, so that justice is perverted.
Habakkuk 1:2 cry out:
zâ‛aq
zaw-ak'
A primitive root; to shriek (from anguish or danger); by analogy (as a herald) to announce or convene publicly: - assemble, call (together), (make a) cry (out), come with such a company, gather (together), cause to be proclaimed.
Habakkuk 1:2 save:
yâsha‛
yaw-shah'
A primitive root; properly to be open, wide or free, that is, (by implication) to be safe; causatively to free or succor: - X at all, avenging, defend, deliver (-er), help, preserve, rescue, be safe, bring (having) salvation, save (-iour), get victory.
Jenny is in despair because MS doesn’t have a cure. I was, like I said, pretty much in denial about it most of yesterday. And why not, I am now on three different pain medications (and yet I still hurt). We celebrated my son’s birthday today… it was enjoyable, but I ended up getting a lot of attention from family that I really didn’t want. I guess that is OK. I really wanted the focus to be on my son and not the spotlight to be on me, but again, I am pretty doped up right now. And so, here’s this situation. I’m in this pain. The doctor knows I am in pain. God knows I am in pain. I know I am in pain. How long, O LORD, must I call for help, but you do not listen? Or cry out to you, “I’m in pain!” but you do not help? Now, the changes are truly mine… but, I this is how I feel sometimes. And it is OK to be frustrated with God. It is how we deal with that frustration that develops character. It’s any challenging situation, really, that develops character. So, what do I do?
Hebrews 5:7-10
During the days of Jesus' life on earth, he offered up prayers and petitions with loud cries and tears to the one who could save him from death, and he was heard because of his reverent submission. Although he was a son, he learned obedience from what he suffered and, once made perfect, he became the source of eternal salvation for all who obey him and was designated by God to be high priest in the order of Melchizedek.
Christ learned obedience. That is a shocking thing to a lot of people. It doesn’t say that Christ sinned and that is not what I am saying, but it says that Christ learned to be obedient. I think this has to do with him being twelve
Hebrews 5:8 learn:
manthanō
man-than'-o
Prolonged from a primary verb, another form of which, matheō, is used as an alternate in certain tenses; to learn (in any way): - learn, understand.
Hebrews 5:8 obedience:
hupakoē
hoop-ak-o-ay'
Attentive hearkening, that is, (by implication) compliance or submission: - obedience, (make) obedient, obey (-ing).
Luke 2:41-52
Every year his parents went to Jerusalem for the Feast of the Passover. When he was twelve years old, they went up to the Feast, according to the custom. After the Feast was over, while his parents were returning home, the boy Jesus stayed behind in Jerusalem, but they were unaware of it. Thinking he was in their company, they traveled on for a day. Then they began looking for him among their relatives and friends. When they did not find him, they went back to Jerusalem to look for him. After three days they found him in the temple courts, sitting among the teachers, listening to them and asking them questions. Everyone who heard him was amazed at his understanding and his answers. When his parents saw him, they were astonished. His mother said to him, “Son, why have you treated us like this? Your father and I have been anxiously searching for you.”
“Why were you searching for me?” he asked. “Didn’t you know I had to be in my Father's house?” But they did not understand what he was saying to them.
Then he went down to Nazareth with them and was obedient to them. But his mother treasured all these things in her heart. And Jesus grew in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and men.
Luke 2:51 obedient:
hupotassō
hoop-ot-as'-so
To subordinate; reflexively to obey: - be under obedience (obedient), put under, subdue unto, (be, make) subject (to, unto), be (put) in subjection (to, under), submit self unto.
And this is really the obedience that I need to have. When it all comes down, it is OK to cry out and it is good to put my petitions before God, but I still have to remain obedient to him. Christ became obedient to his parents, at least it says here at the age of twelve. I know it can at a later age for me, for God and my parents, but at least it came. And doubts come and go, we cry out, but that doesn’t mean we stop being obedient. I am tired. My son has had three birthday parties today… my body hurts… and I am groggy. I appreciate your prayers and kind words. I love you all. Johnny Out.
“Kind words can be short and easy to speak but their echoes are truly endless.”
Mother Teresa
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