Vomit Study: Lesson 4

Proverbs 26:11
As a dog returns to its vomit, so fools repeat their folly.

Fools repeat the same mistake over and over again, expecting different results. By this definition, I am a fool. I have done the same sins over and over again, expecting different results, only to find myself in the early stages of a divorce, living in an empty apartment, almost friendless, and my kids barely see me. Not worth it. Not worth it at all. God is waiting for me to repent. So that is what I am doing. I repent.

Repentance is a choice. "If you repent, I will restore you," as it is written in Jeremiah 15. It comes across as a promise. God's promises can be held true. My promises haven't held true in a long time. I sometimes don't know what was wrong with me, but for the fact that I am the worst of sinners. My therapist tells me, reminds me, that I am a divine being having a human experience that sometimes sins. The fact is that I am indeed a divine being having a human experience that does indeed sin from time to time.

Psalm 119:9
How can a young person stay on the path of purity? By living according to your word.

Purity has been my downfall. I haven't stayed pure for a long period of time. I struggle with being pure. But the promise here is that if I depend on God's word, clean my heart out, then I can stay on the path of purity. It doesn't say that there won't be struggles, but it does say that it can keep me on the path of purity by living on God's word. So that is what I am going to do.